Current Weight: 296
Weekly Loss/Total Loss: -1/-4
Squares Allowed: 5
Squares Completed: 0
I did the stairs once. I worked out at home… I kept my portions in decent control.
And yet I sit here feeling like a huge loser.
I really just don’t have the umph right now – I want the umph.. I really do. I look at my body and just think I’m the most disgusting thing on the face of the earth…. and I just can’t force myself to the high level of exercise needed to shed this weight as fast as humanly possible.
I dunno – I’m just a bit down over it all. Depression is a difficult battle anyway and then top a few things on top that have my nerves on edge and this is what you get…. a really depressive version of what I don’t want to be.
Things I have changed in the last week
I did the stairs. I did a couple work outs at home.
Other than that… I’m still kinda blah about the whole thing.
Things I want to do next week
I want to have a two pound loss. I really do – but I have this fear in the pit of my stomach that says I’ll be lucky if it stops at a 2 pound gain.
So next week I want to do the stairs, do more exercise at home, maybe even get in a run through the neighborhood.
No pictures this week as I haven’t hit a 10 pound milestone.